“Thank you for the info about the CYL course. Yesterday’s teleconference with the teachers was great. After hearing Rebecca say that she taught her 3 year old how to release, I decided to increase my effort with my daughter who is almost 3. She’s amazingly good at it and in one second she’s happy again. This is actually one of the two gains I want to report.
The first gain is about teaching my daughter releasing. I realized, with a lot of love, that when she cries and throws a “tantrum” it’s because she’s suffering from thwarted desire, and it’s not a kid thing, it’s just like what adults experience. It was happening a lot lately and I was getting frustrated and exhausted about it. I had a change of view and now see that she’s suffering and doesn’t understand what’s going on, just like I do a lot of times. I’m now guiding her to release the sadness. She wants happiness without sorrow just like everyone else and I figure that the best and most loving action I can take for her is to teach her releasing as early as possible. You said the same thing yesterday, that the most loving action toward others is to tell them about the method.
The second gain is that I was feeling stuck for a few days while working with the Grow Up course. My mind had been beating me up with all sorts of “you don’t know how to release anymore” type thoughts and all my releasing attempts felt very shallow and ineffectual. Today was getting really bad and I decided that I’d go back to basics and allow whatever was there, even if that was all I could do and my rear fell off. Suddenly I saw that the voice in my head wasn’t my enemy. It was ME trying to protect myself by creating a lot of noise and confusion, like a large amount of flashing signs warning about a damaged road or a large barking dog trying to dissuade me from getting closer. Once I saw that, I felt a wave of relaxation and compassion/love towards the voice in my head. It was my voice trying to protect me. I had put it in there as a warning that I should leave the area alone. I switched from trying to release in the third person to suddenly including the voice as ME and taking loving responsibility for it. I did it, not to me, but FOR me. I can remember how I used to try to distract myself from emotional pain by thinking about something else, or even focusing my attention so much on a physical sensation that the pain would fade to the background. These were good strategies for someone who didn’t know better, but now I want to allow and release so I have to disarm my booby traps first. It’s a very interesting process of having to undo what I did originally out of love and a desire to protect. The voice is now acting as an ally rather than as what I previously thought of as a voice. As long as I was viewing my feelings as “it, something out there that’s not me” I was stuck. As soon as I started seeing them as me, perhaps fragments of me, I gained the ability to do something with them. I seem to have a choice again. It also seems that my alarms (resistance) are the disturbance, not the actual emotions that want to leave.”
Thanks for everything (can I ever say it enough?),
Sam
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